5182   NO ONE MORE WORTHY OF LOVE

Baba would probably have stayed at Guruprasad palace until he left Poona, but a long distance telephone call was received from Shantadevi Maharani's secretary in Bombay, informing them that half of Guruprasad was required for some guests whom the Maharani had promised to accommodate. The secretary was told that during his stay Baba did not want anyone else to stay in the house. But since the Maharani had promised those people, he agreed to vacate the bungalow early. The secretary most likely conveyed this to the Maharani and phone calls went back and forth between Bombay and Guruprasad. But having decided to leave, Baba moved back to Dadi Kerawala's cottage at Ganeshkhind Gardens on June 1st. The result was that, thereafter, the Maharani reserved Guruprasad exclusively for Baba's use and never allowed anyone else to stay while Baba was there.

On Sunday, June 2nd, Baba held another meeting with his lovers from Navsari, Bajwa and Surat at Ganeshkhind, and repeated verbatim what he had stated at the previous "warning meeting" in May against visiting saints. Baba exhorted them to hold firmly to his daaman, as the black cloud was fast approaching, and he again emphasized the fact that he was the one and only real Avatar of this age.

One old lover in the group, Ader Desai (Keki Desai's brother of Dehra Dun), promptly said, "Baba, I love you so much, but the idea of God coming down as the Avatar does not penetrate into my heart, however much I try to make it do so. I tell others that you are the Avatar, but to be honest I have no such conviction, though I desire it very much."

Baba asked him, "Do you love someone more than me? Have you come across anyone greater than myself?"

Ader replied, "No, there is no one more worthy of love than you."

Baba assured him, "Then that is enough. Why worry? Try to love me more and more. But remember one thing, never tell others what you do not feel yourself. Tell others only what you honestly take me to be. I am everything, and one can honestly believe anything."

Baba pointed to Cowas Vesuna and asked whether he believed him to be the Avatar. Cowas said, "One hundred percent!"

Baba emphasized again, "Try to hold fast to my daaman." But he also added, "However much you may try to hold on to it, it all depends upon my will whether to let go of your hand or not.